I starve myself so my son will have more food

I'm in the middle of a nasty divorce, and for revenge I suppose, or just to prove I can't care for our son, my husband locked me out of our food stamp account (both online and put a security code on the account for on the phone) and cancelled them. This month we have had no food stamps.

That's not my confession though. My confession is that whenever I know we're going to be low on food, I start starving myself so there will be more food for my son. Like today, the only thing I've eaten is a package of ramen. It's not like that's all we have and that I can't eat, but it's more like I'm so afraid of running out of food that I purposely don't eat so that never happens.

I feel really weak, and I've been really depressed/moody from my blood sugar being insanely low. But I keep going, I HAVE to keep going, for him. I cover up how I'm feeling and I just try to stay bouncy and positive so he doesn't realize what's going on.

My four year old son asks me, "why don't you eat, momma?" and I don't know what to tell him.

I don't really know why I'm confessing this. I don't expect anyone to feel sorry for me, and I keep this a secret from everyone, not just my son. I guess... I just need to say it and get it out there because I don't like harboring big secrets like this.

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 23 August, 2022
Let me tell you a secret, just type html tags in comment and boom, invisible text. Btw sad story :D
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 23 August, 2022
 23 August, 2022
Wish you best of luck
 23 August, 2022

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